( ♚ ) —– the memory was still drastic in his head, reminding him every day of who he was – the kind of monster he wanted to get rid of, but the strength to gain control was nowhere near him; making him a weakling, unable to stand up to his own actions on what he had done back then. not only to flora, but to lots of people. which led to him ending up lonely and sad but, keeping up the right attitude for people to never worry. after all, he was still only a lonesome child. ❝ i am not proud of it. it’s a sensitive topic for me, and i’d never know when it’d be appearing again. flora, there’s a reason why i take my distance, you have been one of few who had been exposed to whatever this is — i don’t want actions to go overhand again, i can’t bring myself to look myself in the eyes, if i were to hurt you. i did that many times already. i want it to end. right now, right here. ❞
⊰ ✿ ⊱ — Tentatively ; there’s hands holding out ; trying to grasp the dialogue of a broken story. A meticulous connotation, sharing wonders of a flower drenched in grief ; delicate & wondrous yet FRAIL. There’s someone falling. Trying to cling onto the moments they have left. ( equanimous ruined ! SCATTERED across prevailing winds ! Oh so clearly seen ; it’s demeaning && pernicious. BUT WHY NOT LET HER BE ?? ) She’s warm but struggling, oh so much ! she needs to breathe again. — time wasn’t on her side but that didn’t mean she couldn’t try right ?? She’s got a saccharine drenched tone bathed in good will ; maybe it would help the latter understand she’s here. she’s always there. ( she’s the flower embodying her own wretched soul ; wanting to become beautiful again yet she’s the one trying to guide another away from the same fate. ) ❛ i know. i understand. but is it so bad that i don’t want to lose you ? A dear friend ? is that bad of me or am i selfish because i’d rather make you face your demons then protect you from them ? ❜ she’s straining, trying got hold don’t the friendship they have left. ❛ You’re afraid. i get that. but let me help you. As your friend. please, just let me help you. ❜